Tuesday, February 22, 2011

What Am I Doing Here?

P didn't sleep well again last night, which is mostly my fault because she fell asleep against me on the couch and I didn't have the heart to wake her up. Of course I paid for that by getting NO sleep because when it was time to go to bed YOU KNOW WHO wouldn't go to sleep.
 Looking on the positive side, her being awake gave me time to finish the book I was reading. I don't even remember the name of it- I just download tons of free books to my Kindle and read them. Most of them have been pretty good, and it's like having a whole library in one book.
Some days I wonder what happened to the smart girl with dreams of college and career when I look around me and I see kids, toys, and piles of laundry and bills that never end. I wouldn't trade my kids for anything but sometimes I wish I could get those days back. Going off to college, joining a sorority- those are experiences I will never get back. I know it's foolish to dwell on those choices I made, especially when I have an amazing life right in front of me.

Monday, February 21, 2011

It's Monday again but so far it's not going too bad. P whined all night so I didn't get much sleep and I usually don't anyway my first night alone. I actually exercised today- I have Slim in 6. I haven't done it in forever. Thought about it every day but that's about as far as it went. I had to start over with the easy one and by the halfway point I was feeling the burn and sweating like a pig.

After my workout (and shower, of course), it was almost lunch time since I hadn't gotten in a big hurry today. I cooked my very first poached egg ever. It was actually pretty good. It tasted pretty much like a hard-boiled egg with soft yokes.  P liked the white part but refused to eat the yellow. At least she ate.
Now to laundry, dishes, and that Smurfs marathon.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Damn Sundays

Well, it's Sunday again and that means later today I will revert to single-parenthood. Luckily I got to keep my husband here for a whole week. And I really mean luckily because he thought he was going to have to go back on Wednesday after working here to cover a co-worker on bereavement but they let him go ahead and finish out the week here, and on Thursday morning I went downstairs to do laundry and was surprised by several inches of water in the basement that was getting deeper. So the two extra days he got to work down here he spent it fixing our water emergency. So now he will have to leave soon, boo.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Grouchy Pants

Peighton is sitting on the couch eating a poptart (which I really should have kept at the table but oh, well- not one worth fighting right now) and I looked over at her and whispered "Psssst". She grumbled "What?". I called her grouchy pants. She said "I'm not grouchy pants. Now leave my grouchy pants alone". She is too freaking funny sometimes! And all the while it looked like the cat is giving me dirty looks from his perch on the back of the couch until he fell asleep. At least he's quiet.

I am still torn about trying to hold out for a job here in town or start applying where my husband is working. He told me yesterday that he officially decided that he doesn't want to stay here and work. I informed him that he officially should have discussed that with his wife before he officially decided. Dammit. I just wish I knew what the right decision for all of us as a family was. I hate not knowing what to do. I had better figure it out soon- I'm almost out of money.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Happy Half -Priced Chocolate Eve!!

Well, it is Valentines Day and I like romance as much as the next girl but the best thing about Valentines Day is that tomorrow all the chocolate will be half-priced!! YUM! Hubby got to stay in town to work so at least we get to spend it together- in front of the TV watching Kansas Jayhawk basketball! That's fine with me since I am just as much of a KU fan as my husband. Rock Chalk Jayhawk!! Peighton even knows the chant. I really need to get moving today- I need to clean out clothes and toys. Still no luck on the job search, so I guess I need to be productive at home. Need to exercise, too, but that is another story...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

A Much Needed Break

The other two kids are with their dad this week, so I brought my daughter to spend the week with my husband. This out-of-town contract thing is getting old. As nice as it is to have actual people to talk to (not that the kids aren't people, but sometimes I wonder), it has only helped Peighton's behavior slightly. At least she is good when the other grown-ups come home from work. We are staying at my in-law's house so it helps to have grandma and grandpa plus daddy to help. We are actually considering staying up here for good. I don't really want to. It's about two and a half hours from home. Mostly I don't want to change the kids schools and daycare but it may be my only hope of finding a real job. I am an amateur photographer but that doesn't pay the bills. It does save me money on doing the kids pictures myself. I will also have a huge custody fight on my hands should we choose to move, and I don't want to move without the other kids. I'm just scared. Very scared. I know God has a plan for me, I just wish I could here what He is saying. I am praying He leads me to the job He wants me to have. Here are a few pictures I took the other day...



Friday, February 4, 2011

I Have Survived- Barely

It is Friday at last and my husband should be home tonight. The kids went back to school so right now it's just me and Peighton. She is being relatively calm so far today. She won't pick up any toys or otherwise do anything she's asked, but at this point it's a fair trade for her not destroying anything. She did, however, steal all of the money out of my coat pocket. The entire house looks like Wal Mart exploded in here. Where there's not toys there's clothes and where there's not clothes there's toys. Yesterday she took all the clothes out of her dresser and put them in the bathtub so she could wash them. I had left the water dripping so it didn't freeze so now I have a big pile of damp clothes on the bathroom floor. At this point I don't even care. Let it pile up!! I really need to do something productive today but I really don't want to. Story of my life lately. I have no motivation. Or job. Or sanity....barely.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Snowed in

I am snowed in with three kids, two dogs, and one cat. Talk about crazy! And of course my husband is not in town. At least he is capable of some control. The kids and the dogs are convinced that my husband is lord and master and mom is nobody. Makes for some challenging moments. My daughter is obsessed with her bathing suit and won't take it off, even though it's like ten degrees outside. I think I'm going to have to hide it somewhere really good. She also refuses to eat anything except chocolate milk. At least we still have electricity and the x-box so my son is occupied. Well, the chaos calls...